OMG!!!!! I can not even begin to tell you how EXCITED I am!!!! I was SOOOOO scared of this week...I figured there was NO way in HELL I could run for 20 min at this stage of the game. Let me just tell you, I am PROUD to report, I WAS SOOOO WRONG!!!
THIS IS HOW THE WEEK WENT...
So, as I blogged earlier this week, I had started Week 5 last week. So, I did W5D1 twice. And LOVED it. But, I was a little nervous about the upcoming 8min runs becauase it seemed like I was barely making it through the 5min runs. I used Carli's podcast for both Day 1's. Not sure why I didn't use Suz's, but I didn't...meant to, but didn't.
Wednesday 9/8 I did W5D2 inside on my treadmill. And to my surprise, I got thru the 8min runs just fine!!! And LOVED it. I used Suz's podcast. My Ipod was dead, so instead of using that as an excuse, I set up a playlist on my computer with songs for stretching before and after, and did it anyway!!! YAY ME!!! I did like her podcast, but for the 1st time, it was very hard to hear/understand her when she cued in. I knew what she was gonna say because it was specific for that days training, but I couldn't fully understand her. The music was great though! I didn't feel completely confident with the runs though, so I did it again on Friday 9/10 and this time I decided to give it a shot outside. The weather has been much cooler this week, and I figured I will be running the race outside, so I need to get used to it. So, I got dressed in my workout clothes and took the baby in the stroller and my son up to the bus stop. I did some stretching before leaving the house, and then did some at the bus stop, but I did not stretch as long or as well as I usually do. As soon as my son was on the bus, I started my training. I made it through it, but it was REALLY tough!!! I felt like I was walking faster than I was running. My 8mo old is weighing almost 20lbs, plus the weight of the stoller...it is REALLY difficult!!! Not sure if it was so difficult because I was pushing all the extra weight or because outside is so much different than the treadmill or if it's because I didn't stretch as well as I usually do...my muscles were really killing me!!! I MADE IT THOUGH!!! I NEVER once stopped or walked when I was supposed to run...BUT, I was pretty nervous about the upcoming 20min run. (Are you noticing a pattern yet? LOL)
I knew from my friend that had done this training before, that W5D3 was REALLY tough, and she had read on the message boards of C25K that most people struggled with it, and didn't make it through it, but not to be discouraged...to view it as a test to see how far you had come and what work you still needed to do. So, I went into W5D3 figuring that I wouldn't be able to run the whole 20min, but I wanted to at least do 10min. I trained on Mon, Wed, Fri, this week, and knew that I COULD wait til Mon. to finish Week 5, especially since we would be out of town visiting my in-laws, but I really wanted to keep going. So, I packed my workout clothes, and figured I might do it outside or I might use my in-laws treadmill...I got up this morning and it was raining, so I got dressed in my workout clothes, popped my Ipod in and started stretching (after my cup of coffee of course!), I headed upstairs and jumped on their treadmill...which I LOVED btw!!! It has a little cool down fan on it that blows right on your face!!! It was really humid out with the rain, so I turned the ceiling fan on, opened the window and turned the cooldown fan on, and tried to mentally prepare. I wasn't sure how I would do because I have struggled with running in the humidity, but I REALLY wanted to be able to at least run 10min. I used Carli's podcast because I didn't have time to load Suz's Day3 on my Ipod. I started walking at 2.5 and was feeling pretty good...popped my run up to 3.0 and even though I was feeling pretty good, I didn't want to push my luck by upping the speed, so I stayed at 3.0 and just enjoyed the music. Carli used the same podcast for all 3 days, so it had the cues for the whole week on it. So, I got thru that 1st 5min run, and said, "Ok, cool. I feel pretty good." Then I got the cue for the end of the 1st 8min run, and said, "Ok, cool. I still feel pretty good! That's kinda exciting!" Then the cue came on that I had made it thru the middle of the 20min run...."Wait! What?" I had made my goal of running for 10min! And I still felt really good!!! So, I kept going, and before I knew it, I had been running for about 15min!! I felt SO good, and I LOVED the beat of the music, that I sped up!! I ran the last 4 or 5 min at 3.2!! When she chimed in to slow down for my walk, I slowed down to 3.0 and stayed there for most of my cooldown walk! And I actually felt like I made it though it easier than I had before. But, WAIT!!!! PAY ATTENTION...DID YOU GET THAT?????I RAN FOR 20 MINUTES AND INCREASED MY SPEED!!!!
TIPS
Just keep running!!!! I have found that when I feel like it's getting tough and I might not make it through the run, I zone out. I focus on the lyrics or I watch my feet or I stare at something, or I get deep in thought about some other thing that pops in my head...then it doesn't seem so bad....distraction is a wonderful thing!
EPIPHANY
I think my treadmill is a bit weird! LOL!!! I know, perfect, right? It seems that even when my incline is at 0, my treadmill still has a natural, slight incline to it, which may be why it has been so hard for me to increase my speed at home, and may also be why it was so easy on my in-laws treadmill. I've noticed before that I seem to be able to go faster on the treadmills at the gym, and that walking on my treadmill seems more difficult, and it doesn't feel as flat. I definitely know when I have pushed the incline button, but when I haven't it still feels off. My husband has taken a look at it and seems to think it does have a very slight incline to it. He's going to take the level to it to confirm. LOL. I will keep you posted on what we discover.
So, despite feeling SO good today, I think I may still repeat W5D3 on Tuesday...I want to see how it feels on this treadmill and see if I can do it. I am also planning on trying to train outside this Saturday without the baby and stroller, and see how I do. Though I have to say, looking over Week 6's training...it kinda seems easy after running 20min, but we shall see how it feels on MY treadmill. I will keep you posted.
Thanks SO much for your support and encouragement...it really does keep me going when I think of giving up.
And as always, thanks for joining me on my Journey 2 Fabulous!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Week 5...
Monday 8/30, I started Week 5.
The 1st day is a 5min warmup walk as always, then 3 intervals of the following, 5min run, 3min walk, then ends with a cooldown walk.
I did it, AND LOVED IT!!!!
I was a little nervous about it because in Week 4, it seemed like I was barely making it thru the 5min runs...But, on Day 1, I just kept thinking, "Ok, this isn't SO bad!!" And I felt AMAZING afterwards!!!!
Then the AWFUL humidity set in...And even though I have air conditioning, I was walking my son to the bus stop every morning, and coming home feeling like I needed a shower and a nap!!! That litte walk to the bus stop sapped ALL the energy out of me, and then I just kept making excuse after excuse, as I am want to do...
So, a week went by and I did not finish Week 5...
But, yesterday 9/6 I did Week 5 Day 1 again. AND I FELT GREAT!!! I actually kept thinking, "I GOT THIS!!"
TIPS
My only tip for this week, is just STOP MAKING EXCUSES!!!! I am the Queen of them, but if I hadn't made excuses last week, I would be starting Week 6 instead of starting Week 5 again!!!
The only other thing I want to reiterate is if you are struggling to get through Week 4 and you are worried about Week 5...SLOW DOWN. DO NOT worry about how fast you are going. Just worry about running for the entire length of time. My friends that have been running so much faster than me, have told me that they are really struggling with Week 4. SLOW DOWN, SLOW DOWN, SLOW DOWN!!!! This is my feeling...Once I know that I can run for 30min straight, which is the goal for the end of this program, then I can worry about increasing my speed. Now, if along the way, I begin to increase my speed like I did a couple weeks ago, then great, but I'm not going to stress about it, and I'm not going to beat myself up for slowing down if it means that I can actually RUN!!!!
PODCAST
So far, on both W5D1's I have used Carli's Podcast. I tried it for the 1st time last week, and really liked the way it was structured for Day 1, and I really liked the music. Carli's Podcast is 1 podcast for all 3 days even though they are all different. It gives cues for all 3 days on the podcast. It is GREAT for Day 1, but I think it would be difficult for Day 2 and 3 because I will be thinking she's going to tell me to stop running, when she's actually cuing in for a different day, so I am gonna try Suz's for Day 2 and maybe Day 3 too.
I listened to them all briefly, and it seemed that Suz's podcasts were lower quality sound than they had been. Which is also part of why I went with Carli's for my 1st day. But, like I said, I want to use a podcast for my specific day, so Suz's it will be. I will let you know what I think.
I will be doing Week 5 Day 2 tomorrow. And I feel ready. I am glad that I did Day 1 twice. I think it has helped. I am still nervous about Day 3, but I've heard from a bunch of people that have done this before that most people do not make it through it. To view it as simply a test of how far you've come, and where you still need to go. So, I will keep you posted.
As always, Thanks for joining me on My Journey 2 Fabulous!
The 1st day is a 5min warmup walk as always, then 3 intervals of the following, 5min run, 3min walk, then ends with a cooldown walk.
I did it, AND LOVED IT!!!!
I was a little nervous about it because in Week 4, it seemed like I was barely making it thru the 5min runs...But, on Day 1, I just kept thinking, "Ok, this isn't SO bad!!" And I felt AMAZING afterwards!!!!
Then the AWFUL humidity set in...And even though I have air conditioning, I was walking my son to the bus stop every morning, and coming home feeling like I needed a shower and a nap!!! That litte walk to the bus stop sapped ALL the energy out of me, and then I just kept making excuse after excuse, as I am want to do...
So, a week went by and I did not finish Week 5...
But, yesterday 9/6 I did Week 5 Day 1 again. AND I FELT GREAT!!! I actually kept thinking, "I GOT THIS!!"
TIPS
My only tip for this week, is just STOP MAKING EXCUSES!!!! I am the Queen of them, but if I hadn't made excuses last week, I would be starting Week 6 instead of starting Week 5 again!!!
The only other thing I want to reiterate is if you are struggling to get through Week 4 and you are worried about Week 5...SLOW DOWN. DO NOT worry about how fast you are going. Just worry about running for the entire length of time. My friends that have been running so much faster than me, have told me that they are really struggling with Week 4. SLOW DOWN, SLOW DOWN, SLOW DOWN!!!! This is my feeling...Once I know that I can run for 30min straight, which is the goal for the end of this program, then I can worry about increasing my speed. Now, if along the way, I begin to increase my speed like I did a couple weeks ago, then great, but I'm not going to stress about it, and I'm not going to beat myself up for slowing down if it means that I can actually RUN!!!!
PODCAST
So far, on both W5D1's I have used Carli's Podcast. I tried it for the 1st time last week, and really liked the way it was structured for Day 1, and I really liked the music. Carli's Podcast is 1 podcast for all 3 days even though they are all different. It gives cues for all 3 days on the podcast. It is GREAT for Day 1, but I think it would be difficult for Day 2 and 3 because I will be thinking she's going to tell me to stop running, when she's actually cuing in for a different day, so I am gonna try Suz's for Day 2 and maybe Day 3 too.
I listened to them all briefly, and it seemed that Suz's podcasts were lower quality sound than they had been. Which is also part of why I went with Carli's for my 1st day. But, like I said, I want to use a podcast for my specific day, so Suz's it will be. I will let you know what I think.
I will be doing Week 5 Day 2 tomorrow. And I feel ready. I am glad that I did Day 1 twice. I think it has helped. I am still nervous about Day 3, but I've heard from a bunch of people that have done this before that most people do not make it through it. To view it as simply a test of how far you've come, and where you still need to go. So, I will keep you posted.
As always, Thanks for joining me on My Journey 2 Fabulous!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Week 4 DONE!!!
Week 4 ALL DONE!!!!
I was a bit nervous about this, but it actually wasn't too bad...
I finished on Friday...
Here's how it went down.
W4D1 went pretty well. I deliberately slowed myself down to 3.0 because I was worried I wouldn't be able to make it through the 5min runs at 3.2
Then because the week was a bit cooler, I did the whole week on my treadmill, but with my windows all open, so basically outside. I have trouble with my breathing when it's humid...nothing major, but I notice that I sweat alot more, alot sooner, and I breath harder sooner. But, I finished W4D2 on Thursday. I know I wasn't supposed to train again on Friday, but my sister was going in for a C-section to have her 1st child, and I was nervous, and figured it was much better for me to train on back to back days instead of eating a whole bag of Doritos or some other snack I didn't really need to be eating. I did have to slow down to 2.9 to get through it, but I DID IT!!!
MY NOTES FOR THIS WEEK
I was watching the clock ALOT this week, and I do think it made it a bit more difficult, so my tip would be, DON'T WATCH THE CLOCK!!! Also, its hard, but don't worry about how fast you are going, worry about wether you can make it through it. What's important is endurance, not speed. It's really hard for me to remember that, because all my other friends are several inches taller than me and running at like 5.0 so, I am constantly comparing myself...next tip...DON'T COMPARE YOURSELF. Just do the best that YOU can do...compete with yourself.
PODCASTS
Again, I found that I liked BOTH of them...I knew more of the songs, and knew them better on Carli's podcast, but I do love me some Micheal Jackson!!! So, Suz's was nice too...I like switching it up though, so it worked out well that I liked both of them...not sure what I'm gonna do next week since Suz has a seperate podcast for each day in Week 5, and Carli just has one. I know I will switch between the 2 of them, just not sure how I will do it.
I am really nervous about next week. Not too much about Day 1 and 2, but Day 3!!! 20 min straight of running??? WOW!!!
So, send me happy thoughts, and vibes and prayers!!!
Keep following my Journey 2 Fabulous...
I was a bit nervous about this, but it actually wasn't too bad...
I finished on Friday...
Here's how it went down.
W4D1 went pretty well. I deliberately slowed myself down to 3.0 because I was worried I wouldn't be able to make it through the 5min runs at 3.2
Then because the week was a bit cooler, I did the whole week on my treadmill, but with my windows all open, so basically outside. I have trouble with my breathing when it's humid...nothing major, but I notice that I sweat alot more, alot sooner, and I breath harder sooner. But, I finished W4D2 on Thursday. I know I wasn't supposed to train again on Friday, but my sister was going in for a C-section to have her 1st child, and I was nervous, and figured it was much better for me to train on back to back days instead of eating a whole bag of Doritos or some other snack I didn't really need to be eating. I did have to slow down to 2.9 to get through it, but I DID IT!!!
MY NOTES FOR THIS WEEK
I was watching the clock ALOT this week, and I do think it made it a bit more difficult, so my tip would be, DON'T WATCH THE CLOCK!!! Also, its hard, but don't worry about how fast you are going, worry about wether you can make it through it. What's important is endurance, not speed. It's really hard for me to remember that, because all my other friends are several inches taller than me and running at like 5.0 so, I am constantly comparing myself...next tip...DON'T COMPARE YOURSELF. Just do the best that YOU can do...compete with yourself.
PODCASTS
Again, I found that I liked BOTH of them...I knew more of the songs, and knew them better on Carli's podcast, but I do love me some Micheal Jackson!!! So, Suz's was nice too...I like switching it up though, so it worked out well that I liked both of them...not sure what I'm gonna do next week since Suz has a seperate podcast for each day in Week 5, and Carli just has one. I know I will switch between the 2 of them, just not sure how I will do it.
I am really nervous about next week. Not too much about Day 1 and 2, but Day 3!!! 20 min straight of running??? WOW!!!
So, send me happy thoughts, and vibes and prayers!!!
Keep following my Journey 2 Fabulous...
Friday, August 27, 2010
Week 3 - DONE!!!
I HAVE FINISHED!!!!
Not only did I finish it, I increased my speed!!! I had been running at 3.0, but this week towards the end I got up to 3.2!!! I know it's not super fast or anything, but I have short legs...I'm only 5'3"...
NOTES FOR THIS WEEK
So, I actually finished Week 3 last Sunday, but haven't had time to blog about it...last week, my weight fluctuated ALOT!!! I have noticed that when I do not properly hydrate myself, I weigh in about 2lbs heavier than when I do properly hydrate. So, my tip for you is to drink half your body weight in ounces of water each day. I also have been adding Benefiber in my water to help with the digestive system...cuz that can make a difference in your weight loss too!
So, I began the week at 239, but ended the week at 237.6...not too bad!!
PODCASTS
I don't have a preference for Week 3. I liked them both!! I just really couldn't decide which one I liked the best.
I have had ALOT going on, so I will be honest I have not been tracking my food like I was, but I got back into the swing of it this week, and I think that also helped drop some weight. My frustration is though that I wanted to be down to 237 this week, and I didn't quite make it. With as much as I am sweating I would think that I would be losing more weight, but I am wondering if I am gaining some muscle instead...which will pay off big time in the end. We will just have to see though.
Now, to WEEK 4
As always, thanks for taking this Journey with me 2 Fabulous!!
Not only did I finish it, I increased my speed!!! I had been running at 3.0, but this week towards the end I got up to 3.2!!! I know it's not super fast or anything, but I have short legs...I'm only 5'3"...
NOTES FOR THIS WEEK
So, I actually finished Week 3 last Sunday, but haven't had time to blog about it...last week, my weight fluctuated ALOT!!! I have noticed that when I do not properly hydrate myself, I weigh in about 2lbs heavier than when I do properly hydrate. So, my tip for you is to drink half your body weight in ounces of water each day. I also have been adding Benefiber in my water to help with the digestive system...cuz that can make a difference in your weight loss too!
So, I began the week at 239, but ended the week at 237.6...not too bad!!
PODCASTS
I don't have a preference for Week 3. I liked them both!! I just really couldn't decide which one I liked the best.
I have had ALOT going on, so I will be honest I have not been tracking my food like I was, but I got back into the swing of it this week, and I think that also helped drop some weight. My frustration is though that I wanted to be down to 237 this week, and I didn't quite make it. With as much as I am sweating I would think that I would be losing more weight, but I am wondering if I am gaining some muscle instead...which will pay off big time in the end. We will just have to see though.
Now, to WEEK 4
As always, thanks for taking this Journey with me 2 Fabulous!!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Week 2...not quite finished....ICK!!
Ok, So...I have hit a bit of a bump in the road...a setback.
Week 2 was going GREAT!!! I LOVED it!!! I had completed W2D1 and W2D2. I had used BOTH the podcasts...Carli's and Suz's, and honestly I liked them both. I am leaning a bit more towards Carli's because I knew most of the songs on there, but Suz's had some good beats.
I was all set to complete W2D3 on Sunday, but Friday afternoon I tweaked my back, and by Sunday, it still didn't feel good enough for me to train. I was honestly concerned that if I pushed it and trained, then I would be doing more damage. So, I did alot of stretching for a couple of days...and then...the momentum wasn't there. I had intended on finishing up Week 2 on Tuesday, but just didn't do it...I was SO tired, I couldn't get myself moving. Then Wednesday rolled around and we were SO busy, I couldn't figure out how to work it into my day, and then again on Thursday, and Friday, and I was going to do it Saturday, and crapped out again, feeling exhausted. I also stopped tracking my food. And although it doesn't appear that I have gained any weight, I'm pretty sure I didn't lose any either...and all the progress I made holding myself accountable, has flown out the window...
But, the plans we had for today got rescheduled, so now I find myself with unexpected time, and possibly a renewed sense of excitement.
I am frustrated that I allowed this to happen. I should have gotten right back on the horse. All my training buddies are starting Week 4 or have gotten even further than that, and I will just be finishing Week 2. But, hindsight is 20/20. All I can do now, is pick myself up, and get back into the routine, and stop making excuses.
So, today I will finish Week 2, and I will begin tracking my food and water. And, on Tuesday, I will begin Week 3.
As always, thanks for joining me on my currently bumpy Journey 2 Fabulous!!
Week 2 was going GREAT!!! I LOVED it!!! I had completed W2D1 and W2D2. I had used BOTH the podcasts...Carli's and Suz's, and honestly I liked them both. I am leaning a bit more towards Carli's because I knew most of the songs on there, but Suz's had some good beats.
I was all set to complete W2D3 on Sunday, but Friday afternoon I tweaked my back, and by Sunday, it still didn't feel good enough for me to train. I was honestly concerned that if I pushed it and trained, then I would be doing more damage. So, I did alot of stretching for a couple of days...and then...the momentum wasn't there. I had intended on finishing up Week 2 on Tuesday, but just didn't do it...I was SO tired, I couldn't get myself moving. Then Wednesday rolled around and we were SO busy, I couldn't figure out how to work it into my day, and then again on Thursday, and Friday, and I was going to do it Saturday, and crapped out again, feeling exhausted. I also stopped tracking my food. And although it doesn't appear that I have gained any weight, I'm pretty sure I didn't lose any either...and all the progress I made holding myself accountable, has flown out the window...
But, the plans we had for today got rescheduled, so now I find myself with unexpected time, and possibly a renewed sense of excitement.
I am frustrated that I allowed this to happen. I should have gotten right back on the horse. All my training buddies are starting Week 4 or have gotten even further than that, and I will just be finishing Week 2. But, hindsight is 20/20. All I can do now, is pick myself up, and get back into the routine, and stop making excuses.
So, today I will finish Week 2, and I will begin tracking my food and water. And, on Tuesday, I will begin Week 3.
As always, thanks for joining me on my currently bumpy Journey 2 Fabulous!!
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Week 1 Down...Again
So, as I mentioned earlier, I repeated Week 1 of training to be on the same page with one of my friends. I have completed it AGAIN!!!! YAY!!
MY JOURNEY THIS WEEK
Well...this week has been rough. Not with training but just with life in general. My epiphanies this week will include some non-training thoughts. My intention for this blog was to talk about my weightloss journey and my training. But, I have come to realize that when it comes to eating, it impacts many areas, and many areas of my life impact my eating. I emotionally eat. Therefore some extra epiphanies!
DOWN SIDES
I am having a VERY rough time emotionally lately. I have alot of things that I am having MAJOR anxiety over. I don't get Post-Partum Depression. I get Post-Partum Anxiety. I am taking control, and taking steps to make things better. My husband, my kids, my family and my friends deserve the best me I can be, and at this point, I am not that person, and I can no longer do this on my own. I am calling my Dr. and making an appointment to talk to them about puttin me back on the meds I was on after having Tristen. I Deserve to be the Best Me I Can Be!!
UP SIDES
I am at least very self aware of my emotions and my anxiety. I can recognize what it is, I just can't always control it. But, self-aware is half there!!!
I have completed my training week!!! And felt good about it!! I am REALLY getting into this!!! I can't wait for next week!!!
I LOST WEIGHT!!!!!
Weigh in: 238.2 This week's loss: 1.4 Total loss: 1.8
I can deal with that!!
EPIPHANIES
It is MUCH harder doing this while pushing a stroller!!! OMG!!! Monday, I met with some of my girls and we did our training outside for the 1st time. I of course brought my kids. My son rode his bike, and I pushed my 6mo daughter in the stroller. I'm thinking I was pushing at least an extra 20lbs. My daughter is 15lbs, and I figure the stroller has to weigh at least 5lbs. WOW!!! I did not realize how much of a difference that would make!!! Unfortunately, the 7th run I could not finish. I was trying SOOOOO hard, but it just didn't happen. The last 10ish seconds, I walked. BUT, I did do the 8th!! So, the extra weight and the extra heat, was not so much my friend. I have found out, I MUCH prefer doing my training on the treadmill at home.
I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN!!! No matter how much I may want to be. I am only one person. And yes to begin with it takes more time to tell someone how to do what I can do lickety split, but eventually it will make my life easier!!! I NEED to ask for help, and IT"S OK!!!
I NEED to get away from my kids from time to time. And, IT"S OK!!!
I quit smoking (YAY!!!) when I got pregnant, and I REFUSE to go back to it this time!! But, that also means, that when I get upset or stressed or anxious, I eat. I have had an emotionally charged week this week, and have tried VERY hard not to eat my way through it. And, since I lost weight, it looks like that was succesful, but it was not easy. My epiphanies have helped me to work some stuff out. I talk it out with friends I trust who I know will tell me straight without judging me, and talking with my husband has been helping as well. And coming to terms with the fact that sometimes, I can't do it on my own...that right now is one of those times, and that taking medicine to help me is ok...
UPDATE
We have decided on a race!!! We will be doing the Delaware Futures Race on November 6th!! Here's the website if you want to join!!!
http://www.races2run.com/2010/2010Details/11-2010details.htm#110610-Futures
So, I am proud of my progress so far. I am excited about next week!!
I will let you know how it goes and what podcast I prefer.
As always...Thanks for tagging along!
MY JOURNEY THIS WEEK
Well...this week has been rough. Not with training but just with life in general. My epiphanies this week will include some non-training thoughts. My intention for this blog was to talk about my weightloss journey and my training. But, I have come to realize that when it comes to eating, it impacts many areas, and many areas of my life impact my eating. I emotionally eat. Therefore some extra epiphanies!
DOWN SIDES
I am having a VERY rough time emotionally lately. I have alot of things that I am having MAJOR anxiety over. I don't get Post-Partum Depression. I get Post-Partum Anxiety. I am taking control, and taking steps to make things better. My husband, my kids, my family and my friends deserve the best me I can be, and at this point, I am not that person, and I can no longer do this on my own. I am calling my Dr. and making an appointment to talk to them about puttin me back on the meds I was on after having Tristen. I Deserve to be the Best Me I Can Be!!
UP SIDES
I am at least very self aware of my emotions and my anxiety. I can recognize what it is, I just can't always control it. But, self-aware is half there!!!
I have completed my training week!!! And felt good about it!! I am REALLY getting into this!!! I can't wait for next week!!!
I LOST WEIGHT!!!!!
Weigh in: 238.2 This week's loss: 1.4 Total loss: 1.8
I can deal with that!!
EPIPHANIES
It is MUCH harder doing this while pushing a stroller!!! OMG!!! Monday, I met with some of my girls and we did our training outside for the 1st time. I of course brought my kids. My son rode his bike, and I pushed my 6mo daughter in the stroller. I'm thinking I was pushing at least an extra 20lbs. My daughter is 15lbs, and I figure the stroller has to weigh at least 5lbs. WOW!!! I did not realize how much of a difference that would make!!! Unfortunately, the 7th run I could not finish. I was trying SOOOOO hard, but it just didn't happen. The last 10ish seconds, I walked. BUT, I did do the 8th!! So, the extra weight and the extra heat, was not so much my friend. I have found out, I MUCH prefer doing my training on the treadmill at home.
I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN!!! No matter how much I may want to be. I am only one person. And yes to begin with it takes more time to tell someone how to do what I can do lickety split, but eventually it will make my life easier!!! I NEED to ask for help, and IT"S OK!!!
I NEED to get away from my kids from time to time. And, IT"S OK!!!
I quit smoking (YAY!!!) when I got pregnant, and I REFUSE to go back to it this time!! But, that also means, that when I get upset or stressed or anxious, I eat. I have had an emotionally charged week this week, and have tried VERY hard not to eat my way through it. And, since I lost weight, it looks like that was succesful, but it was not easy. My epiphanies have helped me to work some stuff out. I talk it out with friends I trust who I know will tell me straight without judging me, and talking with my husband has been helping as well. And coming to terms with the fact that sometimes, I can't do it on my own...that right now is one of those times, and that taking medicine to help me is ok...
UPDATE
We have decided on a race!!! We will be doing the Delaware Futures Race on November 6th!! Here's the website if you want to join!!!
http://www.races2run.com/2010/2010Details/11-2010details.htm#110610-Futures
So, I am proud of my progress so far. I am excited about next week!!
I will let you know how it goes and what podcast I prefer.
As always...Thanks for tagging along!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Week 1 - Down
OK, so there have been ups and downs this week! I didn't accomplish everything I wanted to, but I have accomplished something I never thought I could!
THE DOWNS
I didn't track my food everyday like I wanted to, and I didn't make the best choices towards the end of the week. It was that time of the month, and it knocked me on my butt!! I was so preoccupied with how bad I was feeling, that I didn't reign myself in in the food department. I emotionally ate. I ate to make myself feel better. Not the best choice!
I also haven't weighed myself since earlier this week. I know that doesn't sound like that big a deal, but I hate not knowing whats going on with my weight. I'm hoping the not so great choices I made towards the end of this week didn't completely screw up all the progress I made in the early part of the week.
THE UPS
I am for the most part thinking about what I'm putting in my mouth. I'm not just mindlessly eating. This is an improvement!! I am also being conscious of my water intake.
I have begun tracking my food, so considering I haven't done that in a yr+, that's also an improvement.
The BEST part??? I COMPLETED WEEK 1 OF C25K TRAINING!!!! I DID IT!!!
I almost talked myself out of the last day because I had a TON of stuff to do, but a friend of mine told me she was proud of me, and I just couldn't NOT do it!! The last day was a little hard to get through. Again, I am dealing with my little friend, so working out was not the easiest thing to do...hoping tomorrow won't be too bad.
I am repeating Week 1 of training this week. I have a friend who had started C25K a while ago, and was actually my inspiration for trying this...she injured her back and has been unable to train, but she wanted to do this with us. She just got released to start training again and so we all want to be on the same week together. So, training OFFICIALLY begins tomorrow morning!!
MY LITTLE EPIPHANY
Although, I do like Carli's podcast, I mentioned in my previous blog, I do VERY much prefer Suz's podcast(also mentioned in my previous blog). It keeps me interested the whole time. The beat is VERY fun and motivating. I may see what I think of Carli's podcast for Week 2, but for Week 1, I will use Suz's.
So, tomorrow is a new day, and a new week!!! Weigh in tomorrow and my 1st training OUTSIDE!!! I will let you know how it goes!!
THE DOWNS
I didn't track my food everyday like I wanted to, and I didn't make the best choices towards the end of the week. It was that time of the month, and it knocked me on my butt!! I was so preoccupied with how bad I was feeling, that I didn't reign myself in in the food department. I emotionally ate. I ate to make myself feel better. Not the best choice!
I also haven't weighed myself since earlier this week. I know that doesn't sound like that big a deal, but I hate not knowing whats going on with my weight. I'm hoping the not so great choices I made towards the end of this week didn't completely screw up all the progress I made in the early part of the week.
THE UPS
I am for the most part thinking about what I'm putting in my mouth. I'm not just mindlessly eating. This is an improvement!! I am also being conscious of my water intake.
I have begun tracking my food, so considering I haven't done that in a yr+, that's also an improvement.
The BEST part??? I COMPLETED WEEK 1 OF C25K TRAINING!!!! I DID IT!!!
I almost talked myself out of the last day because I had a TON of stuff to do, but a friend of mine told me she was proud of me, and I just couldn't NOT do it!! The last day was a little hard to get through. Again, I am dealing with my little friend, so working out was not the easiest thing to do...hoping tomorrow won't be too bad.
I am repeating Week 1 of training this week. I have a friend who had started C25K a while ago, and was actually my inspiration for trying this...she injured her back and has been unable to train, but she wanted to do this with us. She just got released to start training again and so we all want to be on the same week together. So, training OFFICIALLY begins tomorrow morning!!
MY LITTLE EPIPHANY
Although, I do like Carli's podcast, I mentioned in my previous blog, I do VERY much prefer Suz's podcast(also mentioned in my previous blog). It keeps me interested the whole time. The beat is VERY fun and motivating. I may see what I think of Carli's podcast for Week 2, but for Week 1, I will use Suz's.
So, tomorrow is a new day, and a new week!!! Weigh in tomorrow and my 1st training OUTSIDE!!! I will let you know how it goes!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Goals for today accomplished!!!! YAY!!
So, I said yesterday that the next step I wanted to start taking was Tracking My Food. I was gonna start by just simply writing everything down, and then eventually I would track it on a website. Well, I decided to skip that mini-step and just go straight to tracking it online so I would know exactly what I needed to change. So, today, I started tracking my food on LiveStrong.com
I may switch over to Sparkpeople.com I have done them both, but not sure which one I like better right now. I would love to hear from any of you that have used either one. Tell me what you liked and disliked.
Now, let me tell you about today.
Today, Cassie had her 6mo well check...so of course she got shots. Then I had to go grocery shopping, to different stores, in the pouring rain!!! And of course with all the running around, had to grab food out. I didn't have enough food in the house to make lunches to take with us, plus I did need somewhere to sit, other than the car, to feed Cassie since she is now on solid baby food. I just tried to make better choices. So, breakfast, of course, Tristen wants to go to McD's!! OF COURSE!!! I can TEAR UP some McD breakfast!!! I usually end up getting 2 Sandwhiches, and hashbrowns. But, today, I made my coffee this morning as usual, with Equal, and Fat Free Creamer, so when I ordered breakfast, I just ordered a Steak McSkillet Burrito, for the 1st time I might add, AND LOVED IT!!! Then for lunch we went to Chick-fil-a, and instead of getting a Sandwich, and Large Fries, I got a 12pc nugget and Medium Fry and Diet Coke. Not great for Breakfast and Lunch, but better...and that was all I was going for. Then for dinner I had a HUGE salad topped with PopCorn Shrimp and Lite Dressing. I'm gonna treat myself to a bag of SmartPop Kettle Corn in a few!!
DO YOU WANNA HEAR THE BEST PART?????!!!!!!
I FINISHED W1D2!!!!!!!!!
I was afraid after running around all day (I left the house this morning @ 8am, and didn't get home til 1:30!) that I would talk myself out of working out. I am the QUEEN of excuses!! BUT I DIDN'T!!!! YAY ME!!!
This time I used Suz's Podcast...can't decide which one I like better...Suz or Carli...but I like switching it up! I didn't start out so fast like I did the 1st time. I paced myself this time, and it was actually a bit easier. I was still dripping with sweat when I was done, but I didn't feel like I wasn't gonna make it to the end, I didn't feel like I might die (lol) and I didn't feel like my lungs were gonna explode! This is VERY exciting!!! I actually enjoyed it!!!
WAIT!!! WHAT??? I Actually Enjoyed Running????? I'm getting more and more excited about it!!!
So, not too bad for this week, so far. I didn't weigh myself this morning...didn't have time. I'm thinking what I might do is weigh myself the day after I train, though I will probably end up weighing myself everyday...like I said, I get a bit fanatical once I really get into this. So, even with working out today, I have gone over my calories, but only by 93 and considering 2 out of 3 of my meals were fast food today, that ain't bad! Although...I feel like I burned more than 350cal doing that workout, but I've never tracked that kind of stuff before...so, let me know about your experience with Tracking Burned Calories...I just looked up activities on LiveStong. They had one called RaceWalking, and when I read the discription it mentioned repeated intervals of brisk walking and running/jogging, so I figured that was pretty close. I'm probably not going to train again until Friday. I want to get on a Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule, but I might train Thursday, and then not again until Monday. We will see...
I know I've been blogging everyday this week, but I promise I won't be driving you crazy with my mundane life stuff everyday once things get more routine. I will just keep you posted on my progress and any epiphanies I have.
So, what's next?
Continue training, continue tracking my food, and staying UNDER my Calories!!
My Journey has just begun, but I already feel good about it!!!
I may switch over to Sparkpeople.com I have done them both, but not sure which one I like better right now. I would love to hear from any of you that have used either one. Tell me what you liked and disliked.
Now, let me tell you about today.
Today, Cassie had her 6mo well check...so of course she got shots. Then I had to go grocery shopping, to different stores, in the pouring rain!!! And of course with all the running around, had to grab food out. I didn't have enough food in the house to make lunches to take with us, plus I did need somewhere to sit, other than the car, to feed Cassie since she is now on solid baby food. I just tried to make better choices. So, breakfast, of course, Tristen wants to go to McD's!! OF COURSE!!! I can TEAR UP some McD breakfast!!! I usually end up getting 2 Sandwhiches, and hashbrowns. But, today, I made my coffee this morning as usual, with Equal, and Fat Free Creamer, so when I ordered breakfast, I just ordered a Steak McSkillet Burrito, for the 1st time I might add, AND LOVED IT!!! Then for lunch we went to Chick-fil-a, and instead of getting a Sandwich, and Large Fries, I got a 12pc nugget and Medium Fry and Diet Coke. Not great for Breakfast and Lunch, but better...and that was all I was going for. Then for dinner I had a HUGE salad topped with PopCorn Shrimp and Lite Dressing. I'm gonna treat myself to a bag of SmartPop Kettle Corn in a few!!
DO YOU WANNA HEAR THE BEST PART?????!!!!!!
I FINISHED W1D2!!!!!!!!!
I was afraid after running around all day (I left the house this morning @ 8am, and didn't get home til 1:30!) that I would talk myself out of working out. I am the QUEEN of excuses!! BUT I DIDN'T!!!! YAY ME!!!
This time I used Suz's Podcast...can't decide which one I like better...Suz or Carli...but I like switching it up! I didn't start out so fast like I did the 1st time. I paced myself this time, and it was actually a bit easier. I was still dripping with sweat when I was done, but I didn't feel like I wasn't gonna make it to the end, I didn't feel like I might die (lol) and I didn't feel like my lungs were gonna explode! This is VERY exciting!!! I actually enjoyed it!!!
WAIT!!! WHAT??? I Actually Enjoyed Running????? I'm getting more and more excited about it!!!
So, not too bad for this week, so far. I didn't weigh myself this morning...didn't have time. I'm thinking what I might do is weigh myself the day after I train, though I will probably end up weighing myself everyday...like I said, I get a bit fanatical once I really get into this. So, even with working out today, I have gone over my calories, but only by 93 and considering 2 out of 3 of my meals were fast food today, that ain't bad! Although...I feel like I burned more than 350cal doing that workout, but I've never tracked that kind of stuff before...so, let me know about your experience with Tracking Burned Calories...I just looked up activities on LiveStong. They had one called RaceWalking, and when I read the discription it mentioned repeated intervals of brisk walking and running/jogging, so I figured that was pretty close. I'm probably not going to train again until Friday. I want to get on a Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule, but I might train Thursday, and then not again until Monday. We will see...
I know I've been blogging everyday this week, but I promise I won't be driving you crazy with my mundane life stuff everyday once things get more routine. I will just keep you posted on my progress and any epiphanies I have.
So, what's next?
Continue training, continue tracking my food, and staying UNDER my Calories!!
My Journey has just begun, but I already feel good about it!!!
Monday, July 19, 2010
WOW!!! That was hard!!!
Weighed in 239.6
Lost .4 lbs
I didn't really TRY to lose weight, but I was starting to try and make better choices, so I guess something worked...might have been the exercise I did yesterday...but I will get to that in a bit...
So, as I have said, I have had ENOUGH!!! And my anger motivates me, so I have decided to train to do a 5K! The great thing is that I am not doing this alone. I have, so far, 5 girlfriends locally, that are doing it with me, and 1 in my home town, that are all training with me!!! I feel like I have a little team coming with me...my own entourage. I have to say, it is very inspiring.
So, this is where I went...
http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
It is a Couch 2 5K program that lays it all out for you to easily follow. It is a 9 week program, 3 days a week. We officially start training next week, so by the end of Sept. we will be ready. The Team has already started looking at races in Oct. and Nov. and are deciding which one to do.
I started looking for podcasts that follow this program. There are some that are just the spoken run/walk cues, while others have music on them as well as the cues.
The one I found that I like so far is Carli's Podcast:
http://runningintoshape.com/5k-training-downloads/
This is another one I'm gonna try. Suz's Podcast:
http://www.podcastalley.com/podcast_details.php?pod_id=57826
Both have alot of Hip Hop to begin with. Then it looks like Suz's goes into some Pop and then Week 4 is ALL Micheal Jackson!!! YAY!!!
I may eventually make my own if I can figure it out, but until then, I will use these. If anyone has the iphone or ipod touch, evidently there is an app you can download that lets you listen to your own music, but will chime in to give you the run/walk cues. Pretty cool, but unfortunately, I do not have either, but I will live...
But speaking of living...I did not think I would be doing that for much longer yesterday!!! LMAO!!! I decided, because I was REALLY digging the podcast I was checking out, that I would just go ahead and give this C25K thing a shot. OH! MY! GOD!!!! I figured, "How hard can it be? It's just running for 60secs at a time, and I have a minute and a half before I have to do it again!" OMG!! I was huffing and puffing after the 1st 60sec run...and I still had 7 more intervals to do!!! I figured out REAL quick, that how fast I was running was not the point, it was the bouncing and picking my feet up off the ground. So, basically my jog/run was more like a fast walk with a bounce, BUT...I finished the WHOLE thing!!! I felt, at times, like my chest was gonna burst open, and I was sweating more than I ever have IN MY LIFE, but I FINISHED IT!!!
Now, we don't officailly start training till next week, but I had wanted to see how I handled this. It was hard, but I also DID finish it. Which means, I can do it again!! And, I figure since I haven't worked out at all since about my 1st Trimester with Cassie...so about a year ago...I REALLY didn't do too bad.
So, I'm supposed to do Day 2 tomorrow, but I have a REALLY busy day, so it might end up being Wednesday for Day 2, but I will do it!!!
Next step? Tracking my food...
Lost .4 lbs
I didn't really TRY to lose weight, but I was starting to try and make better choices, so I guess something worked...might have been the exercise I did yesterday...but I will get to that in a bit...
So, as I have said, I have had ENOUGH!!! And my anger motivates me, so I have decided to train to do a 5K! The great thing is that I am not doing this alone. I have, so far, 5 girlfriends locally, that are doing it with me, and 1 in my home town, that are all training with me!!! I feel like I have a little team coming with me...my own entourage. I have to say, it is very inspiring.
So, this is where I went...
http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml
It is a Couch 2 5K program that lays it all out for you to easily follow. It is a 9 week program, 3 days a week. We officially start training next week, so by the end of Sept. we will be ready. The Team has already started looking at races in Oct. and Nov. and are deciding which one to do.
I started looking for podcasts that follow this program. There are some that are just the spoken run/walk cues, while others have music on them as well as the cues.
The one I found that I like so far is Carli's Podcast:
http://runningintoshape.com/5k-training-downloads/
This is another one I'm gonna try. Suz's Podcast:
http://www.podcastalley.com/podcast_details.php?pod_id=57826
Both have alot of Hip Hop to begin with. Then it looks like Suz's goes into some Pop and then Week 4 is ALL Micheal Jackson!!! YAY!!!
I may eventually make my own if I can figure it out, but until then, I will use these. If anyone has the iphone or ipod touch, evidently there is an app you can download that lets you listen to your own music, but will chime in to give you the run/walk cues. Pretty cool, but unfortunately, I do not have either, but I will live...
But speaking of living...I did not think I would be doing that for much longer yesterday!!! LMAO!!! I decided, because I was REALLY digging the podcast I was checking out, that I would just go ahead and give this C25K thing a shot. OH! MY! GOD!!!! I figured, "How hard can it be? It's just running for 60secs at a time, and I have a minute and a half before I have to do it again!" OMG!! I was huffing and puffing after the 1st 60sec run...and I still had 7 more intervals to do!!! I figured out REAL quick, that how fast I was running was not the point, it was the bouncing and picking my feet up off the ground. So, basically my jog/run was more like a fast walk with a bounce, BUT...I finished the WHOLE thing!!! I felt, at times, like my chest was gonna burst open, and I was sweating more than I ever have IN MY LIFE, but I FINISHED IT!!!
Now, we don't officailly start training till next week, but I had wanted to see how I handled this. It was hard, but I also DID finish it. Which means, I can do it again!! And, I figure since I haven't worked out at all since about my 1st Trimester with Cassie...so about a year ago...I REALLY didn't do too bad.
So, I'm supposed to do Day 2 tomorrow, but I have a REALLY busy day, so it might end up being Wednesday for Day 2, but I will do it!!!
Next step? Tracking my food...
Sunday, July 18, 2010
The Beginning...Again
Apr 07In April of '07 I was 265lbs. I had chronic back pain, and basically hated myself. I hated how I looked, I hated how I felt and I hated how tired I was all the time and my blood pressure just kept climbing and they were talking about putting me on blood pressure medicine.
I have always struggled with my weight, and I had tried lots of different things, but until I got REAL honest with myself and what I was doing, nothing worked 'cuz I didn't stick with it.
So, in Apr of '07 I tried this weird diet that my sister's friend had tried and had lost lots of weight with. It was called The Birmingham Hospital Diet. It is a total FAD diet...not a long term life change. I had tried lots of these before, but I was determined this time! I did it and in 1wk, I lost 7lbs!!! I was amazed and felt SO good about myself!! I kept using this diet for a couple of months, until I noticed I was cheating alot and not losing weight anymore...but, I wasn't gaining either!!!
Aug 07One of my girlfriends was having FANTASTIC results with Weight Watchers, and she started giving me pointers on what to do and let me login to her account to figure out points values. I basically was self teaching myself the Weight Watchers program. But, it was working, and I was steady losing weight. By Aug of '07 I had lost 30lbs!!! It was AMAZING!!!
Dec 07
Jan 08
Apr 08
May 08
June 08Then I got my own Weight Watchers account and started being very religous about tracking everything I ate and my water etc. Then I started working out.
By June of '08 I had lost 66lbs and was weighing in at 199!!!! Holy Crap!!! I couldn't remember when the last time was that the scale said under 200!!! I was THRILLED!!!
That had been my goal leading up to vacation that year. Vacation put on 5lbs, but I was planning on that.
July 08
Sept 08My sister was getting married in Sept and I wanted to look SLAMMIN' in the dress!!! And despite the 5 extra lbs, I did!!!!
Oct 08
Dec 08It went downhill from there. I teetered around 210 forever!! I just wasn't buckling down again.
I got pregnant in Dec 08, but unfortunately by Feb 09, we had lost the baby.
As part of my self healing, I began journaling and tracking my food again. But, I was still not losing...but I wasn't gaining either. Because of the pregnancy I was now at 214.
In May 09 we got pregnant again! And this time the pregnancy went as expected. I barely gained 15lbs with the pregnancy. I had Gestational Diabetes, and had to watch what I was eating carefully. The same thing happened when I was pregnant with my son. And like after my son, after delivering my daughter, I went a little nutty with all the foods I could eat again, and not worry about it. Plus, I was nursing, and hungry ALL THE TIME!! I almost immediately lost all the baby weight, but then started gaining it all back.
Feb 2010
Apr 2010
May 2010I weighed 230 when I gave birth to my daughter in Jan 2010. I weighed myself last week...weight for it!...240!!! AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!! WHAT THE HELL?????!!!!!
I am SO mad at myself for letting this happen!!!
So, I have had ENOUGH, AGAIN!!!! I have decided to train for a 5K!!
I have NEVER run for more than a minute here or there, so this should be interesting.
I am going to blog all my ups and downs and what I learn from this experience. I'm gonna use this as my Weightloss Journal...pictures, lbs and all!!!
I will be posting weekly and weighing in at least weekly if not more...I get a little fanatical...
My immediate goal?...train for a 5K in October.
My ultimate goal?...lose 100lbs and feel FABULOUS!!!
So come along with me on my Journey 2 Fabulous!!!
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